Childhood and Adolescence

This past semester has not been a very positive experience for me but I realized that most of the problems and pain I struggled with were due to my own actions. Instead of focusing on how to overcome certain situations, I took the easy way out and turned to alcohol as a way to forget about everything going on in my life. I allowed the stress and negativity of many situations and circumstances to get the best of me and control my life. The incident that occurred on December 29th is a clear cut example of how out of control and dangerous I allowed my life to become. I am embarrassed by my actions from that evening. After a lot of thought and reflection about the events of December 29th, I have decided that I need to change a few things about myself in order to be a positive member of my community.

I am very grateful that everyone at this school was so helpful and understanding with me when I was struggling with the aftermath of being in an abusive relationship. I did not know what to do or how to get myself out of the relationship and the guidance I needed was given to me by the teachers, administrators, executives and staff of this university. I can honestly say that without them, I don't know where I would be right now. When I received the notification that there had been a conduct report filed against me I was completely confused. Having consumed an immense amount of alcohol that evening, I completely blacked out and cannot remember most of it. After hearing what I had said and did that evening I am left feeling completely embarrassed and mortified with myself. Not only did I put myself in danger, I also made a fool of myself by getting angry at the people who work to keep my safety and wellbeing their number one priority. I made myself look like an ungrateful person and I am very sorry for that. I learned just how dangerous alcohol really is and that I can't solve my life problems by drinking them away. Instead of using alcohol as a way to cope, I have decided to take advantage of the Counseling Center at Roosevelt.