Epilougue to Cathcher in the Rye

ItÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їs been a year since I left the hospital. Sometimes, however, I think back on those days and wonder how I put up with all the sessions with the psychiatrist. I think he was phony and all listening all the time and trying to get into my life like he controlled me or something.

Anyways, I went back to school in September and decided IÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їll try out everything my parents and the guys at the hospital said to do. They wanted me to and apply myself so I figured IÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їll give it a shot. I canÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їt say school has not been hard and everything especially when you have Pencey Prep as a background. All you learnt down there was how to be phony.

My new school is very interesting. Everyone seems to know what they are doing. Not that many phonies. IÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їm making changes, trying to let go of Allie and becoming a better person. I still wonder what it would be like if Allie was here but like Pheobe said, Ð'ÐŽÐ'oHeÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їs gone.Ð'ÐŽÐ'± Something you may also be happy to know is that I donÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їt lie that much anymore. IÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їm also passing all my classes with fairly decent grades. I know I can do better but that is something IÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їll work on later.

Contemplating on the future, as you may have noticed has never been something I enjoy doing. The psychoanalyst session though, I think kinda helped Ð'ÐŽÐ'®cause now I actually think I am not so mad at the world anymore. My parents are still in a faraway world but Pheobe is growing up and acting more and more like my mother rather than a little sister. Old D.B. and his phony self got married to the English babe. He thinks heÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їs all grown up now. IÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їm also starting to socialize more and making new friends. Not that much of a bad idea as long as they donÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їt become phonies. Then its bad and the reason for coming out of my shell and all my hard work is defeated. IÐ'ÐŽÐ'Їm happy though and hope you are happy for me too.