Fear Essay

Fear

I am a person to believe everything is a matter of perspective. That everything that happens in life is just how our brain processes it. The way we process things is even just a matter of how we were raised and how you were raised is based off of how your parents were raised. People know something is good or bad because they were taught it to be good or bad. Either they were taught from their parents, learned from experience, or witnessed something that would alter what they viewed about it. Towards a majority of all of the things I was taught to be bad, like many other people, I have developed a fear of those things. Most of my fears were developed from hearing things about what can happen, but, as for my biggest fears, I have seen what they can do.

Addiction is what I fear most. I have witnessed what addiction can do from a close perspective. Becoming addicted to something, anything, is so easy and simple. Becoming unhinged from what controls the way decisions are made is the hardest part. Someone I had once looked up to in my life had met the wrong type of people, and with bad company, comes bad habits. This person, whom I will call Tom, became addicted to one of the worst drugs out there. In the beginning, Tom did his best to keep up with his itch and reality, but with time Tom had lost track of what should have been important in his life. Tom had lost more in his life than just track of reality. He had lost his house, car, family, health, job, and freedom. Although Tom had many losses as a result of his addiction, his addiction he gained a woman I will call Mal. Mal was possibly the worst thing that has ever entered my life. I still have hatred towards her today. I had believed that she was the root of all of the problems that were occurring because my life went in a downward spiral after she came about. She had encouraged Tom’s addiction to deepen into more dark corners some that to this day, he cannot escape.

This went on for nearly two years and in that time, I developed nothing less than hate for Tom and anyone and everyone associated with him. I stopped believing in so much because I realized that no outside force can fix someone, they have to make the decision to change on their own. One cannot be saved if they do not want to be saved.